What about me? Well I think I am a born animal communicator as I talked with animals ever since I can remember. But I also saw spirits as a little child, even before I could truly talk. So the energy language or the soul language as I would like to call it, was already in my life before I could speak in words. And still it feels more natural to me than the spoken language. It is more pure, there are no hidden messages, there is no energy that sais "I'm fine", when you're not. It's real, it's true and it's so deep.

I don't like small talk

What is beautiful about energy is that you skip the small talk about the weather, because everyone who comes outside will experience the same weather. It's about your reaction that it might be different. That's why I love soul language so much, it's going straight into the feelings, the deeper thoughts, the intentions. The overall thinking patterns is in someone's aura (yes I call animals 'someone' too because to me, they are.) The aura is showing their true colors and even though I didn't always listen, I am now.

Highly sensitive

A lot of people think that I'm highly sensitive, and I think that they're right. But I'm also very grounded. I don't only believe in love and light, or else we wouldn't be on a planet where duality is the key to balance. Therefore my healings are a little bit different and my conversations with animals can also differ from others. As I see that they live in a domesticated world just like us, we need to adjust to that domestication. But also have a need to go back to nature. Reality to me is a form of nature as well.

Back to nature

The simple kind of life, which is working for your fruits, literally. Working for your warmth, working with the land you may live on and call home. Being the guardians of that piece untill you can't no more. That's what me and my husband truly want. Thus we sold our home in the Netherlands, traveled to Portugal with our pets and here we are, looking for our dream home. A lot of people think that I only think of the romantic side, but that's actually something I had to learn again. I was a little bit too realistic and grounded.

Our pets

Allani

But right before our move, our dog found a little black kitten. Who I truly believe was send by our deceased bunny Nijn. This little black kitten, who almost passed away on the side of the road, is embracing her second chance of life like I've only seen with Boji, our deceased rescue dog. We called her Allani, after the mesopotamian Goddess of battle and sun. As her eyes are the colors of the sun, and she is a warrior for how soon she got better. How she handles life, how she is always happy. No matter if we take her into a bench, into the caravan, into the car, sleep in the caravan, go for a ride the next morning. And finally landing in our mountain house in Bragança. She shows how beautiful the world truly is by her gratefulness, happiness as she overcame hypothermia, malnourishment, dehydration, diarrhea like pee, and actually shouldn't be alive. But she is. She is so alive.

Nijn

Nijn is short for 'konijn', the Dutch word for rabbit. It wasn't the name I picked for her, I was thinking about Amy, Fee, and so on. But whenever we talked about 'our Nijn' her ears perked up. And sometimes she even came to us. So she decided on her own name. We never had a rabbit before. But boy did she bring laughter in our lives. When she was mad, when she was happy, when she had a tantrum because she wanted something... I couldn't even have a normal phone call with my mom as she would always do the most crazy things. Unfortunately we just had her for 2 years until we had to let her go in the summer of 2025 because of infections in her jaw that didn't heal anymore. Not with modern medicine, not with natural medicine. When the body is done, it's over. We brought her home so all the pets could say goodbye as she was one of them, hopping around, greeting guests as they walked in. We bought flowers, we held a wake and then cremated her when it felt right. But she was ready to move across that rainbow bridge much sooner than I was ready to let her go. And of course I let her go, you can't keep the one you love stuck!

Boji

Before Nijn, we had to let go of Boji the first of january 2025. We have had him for 6 years but it felt like he was with us his whole life. Only we got him when he was 5, nearly 6. Unfortunately not making the 12 year mark/birthday. He was the first rescue pet I ever got. But such a special one. I loved my first dog, of course. Still, he was and is special. They all are special. But some souls are more than 'just' soulmates. They are ingraved into your heart, body, mind, soul. I can't really explain it. He was my partner when Erik, my husband, wasn't home, he always had my back. Boji danced with me, protected me and I learned how to kiss me all on his own. Even though he was so scared to come close face to face. He overcame so much in such short periods. Within 3 months who learned to respect our cats, within a half year he stood still to receive their head buds. Within those months I could already let him loose in a field. He just knew that he went home when we picked him up. The stories are too big and too special to share them all.

Ruby

Before Boji I had an English Bulldog Ruby. Yes she was deaf, but I never saw that as a flaw because she was white. Because this dog was/is so smart, she learned sign language before we knew she was deaf. I had her since puppy, a puppy that shoudln't have made it, but she did, she survived. Breed for health instead of more 'bulldogness' she never had issues with her joints. However she was very sensitive to pollen and we made a natural protocol that helped her inmensely. After a move within a year she didn't itch anymore when the spring came. And although she couldn't see much because of a side affect of a modern medicine drug, she was the happiest girl. A very fit bulldog as well, she could do agility parcour, taught it in one day, doing it herself the next. And after 2 weeks, it was boring again. Smart.

Marie

Before getting Ruby I had Marie, a cat like no cat ever. We could read each other no one else can. It wasn't just soul language, it was because we were one and the same, as if we came from the same soulstar. We have been through very rough times and her death was traumatic to me. Especially without people who could really help you, see you, know you and therefore could tell you what was right to do. I promised her I would do better when I didn't live at home anymore. I did, but I also promised her I would do better when she died at just 9 years old. And she just knew, I didn'thad to make a promise. Because she came back very fast. I had to grief hard, let go hard, move on hard. She wasn't done living.

Jade

And so came Jade into my life. I was guided by so many spirit guides and by her own soul until she was reincarnating as the little fertilized egg descended in the womb, so did her soul. Our connection was on such a subtle level it was like losing her again. She was groing inside her mother's belly and I was moving to the country side of the Netherlands, a dream come true. Ruby was left alone and it was good for her to be outside in nature a lot. Than came the message from the spirit guides: I needed to go on the internet and to the Dutch second hand marketplace website. So I did. There she was, such a tiny photograph, upside down nevertheless! But my soul and body recognized her. My heart stopped, then beated to fast and then way too hard. I messaged the woman who was selling these kittens. And without seeing the confirmation, my internet was gone. But she is here, she needed no time adjusting to Ruby although that little kitten never met a dog before. She didn't sniff at anything because everything was hers. Now she is with us in Portugal, being 11 years old and my best friend ever. When she was 2 she even gave birth a possibility which was taken away from her in the form of Marie way too soon (it was what made her sick).

Moon

When Jade was 2 she slipped away from me for 2 days, the third day I heard her mauw from 7.30 in the morning. Of course I rushed outside, but only found her at 15.00! Because (I love her very much) she is not that street wise and gets lost in the same building, in the same room, one window open, the other closed. Not knowing how to get out of there... But she came home pregnant. With just one little baby. Oh how precious the pregnancy was, how scary the child birth, how special to see such a little tinie tiny baby grow up into a beautiful but very sensitive cat. And with a lot of sensitive cats, people think they are rebels, monsters, the worst of all. Only they are misunderstood. She taught me cat's body language like no one else. And the more I listened the deeper our bond got. She will have a garden in Portugal where she will be free and loved. Giving her the best of both worlds she so enjoys.

Joy

Just like our Joy, a dog from Malaga, a friend for Boji because he missed being with another dog. He loved our cats, but it's not the same. So I was on the internet and I saw Joy. As if Ruby lead her to me. And I am sure she did. Because Ruby was a pain in the ass for me, she was my child, she was the best dog ever. But boy did she make it hard for me, always trying out if I was still fit and capable to be leading her. Joy had ptsd I'm sure of it, I have never heard a dog scream like that in her sleep. I have never seen so much blind panick in a dog. It looked like a cartoon ball of just white fur with some paws sticking out now and then. You could not see where she was. But when you are walking in the countryside without a sidewalk, so you're walking on the road, it's very dangerous. We had to pin her to the ground to keep her safe and our selves. After 4 years I can now finally say that she is family dog. But she is the first animal ever, that I really doubted to keep. Only to think: what would happen to her, if I would send her back? So I couldn't. Although it took over 3 years to form a bond, I am glad we did. It was a hard road, but I understand some clients so much better now.

My work is who I am

I introduced my animals, because I am who I am because of them. I know a beautiful woman who had to find herself without her animals, who she is without any pets. But I am not like that. I don't want to be alive if there aren't animals around. I would love to welcome some bunnies and chickens when we find our dreamhome. And I am well aware of all the work it entails. But I don't care. They give me so much peace, friendship, family, authenticity. I can't imagine life without them. Just like I can't imagine doing non spiritual stuff with only humans. I also do spiritual stuff with humans (you can take a look at my website shaman-healer.com). But this is who I am, animals, nature, spirituality and a bunch of realism. I am creative and chaotic, ordened and strategic. Spiritual and real, soft hearted and sometimes stone cold. I am passion driven abitious, and sometimes just enjoying nature like a little fairy. I can also be flaming mad, and just taking in the landscape around me. We are all who we are and I invite you and your animals to feel completely free to be your authentic selves. As I am too. I will hold that space for you.

What about my dreams and plans and love life?

Some things shouldn't be on the internet. I believe I have a wonderful husband and the whole world should know that. And I believe that we are a great fit, but I also know that a relationship needs work, we humans need to work on ourselves too. And if you are interested in our Portuguese adventures, you can follow them on www.finding-roots.com.